Friday, July 28, 2006

A Mess

I intended to actually go home today and settle back in over the weekend. I wanted to leave early just to get away from this fucking city. But now I am too drunk and too high to trust myself to do anything like drive myself half way across the country.

This morning I just feel like a big fucking mess and a complete waste of space.

I am disgusted at myself and feel sorry for myself and if I were anyone else I would probably beat the crap out of me for how pathetic I am being.

And here is another miserable blogger signing out to go drown his misery in drinking, drugs, and mindless sex for the weekend.

2 Comments:

At 3:52 AM, Blogger Gray said...

I *really* know that feeling. It's too bad we can't just be happy with our lives! The problem is that we make things so damned difficult ourselves! For those of us with strict parental and religious upbringings, accepting ourselves is already difficult.

But, how on earth can we expect to accept and love ourselves at all if we keep getting wasted? Getting wasted just makes us hate ourselves more. We must accept ourselves and love and respect ourselves before we can expect anyone else to. We can start by stopping ourselves from sabotaging ourselves.

 
At 9:48 PM, Blogger RIC said...

That's definitely NOT a good idea. This is not meant morally, of couse. Drowning feelings is a wate of time and energy. When you sit back and think you got finally rid of them, they rise from the dead to haunt you all over again. Feelings are made of us, and we are made of them.
Anyway, whatever you do, do it carefully! :-)

 

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