Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Why I Am Here?

No, I do not mean why I am here on this planet, because that is Gods domain and I do not feel like venturing there this afternoon.

I mean why am I here, on blogger.

I am a stuck-up rich kid. I throw temper tantrums. I am extremely high maintenance. I like to sulk, and pout, when I do not get my way.

Yes, I know that none of the above are exactly desirable characteristics, but they are who I am. And what they add up to is that I do exactly what I want, when I want, how I want, with little regard to consequences or to other peoples feelings

(can you see why I have yet to have a successful long-term relationship yet?)

So why put this blog out here, when to be perfectly honest, I appreciate all the advice and welcome it wholeheartedly, in the end, I know that I am going to do whatever I damn well please, regardless of how ill-advised it is. Why?

Because in my society, in my community, I am alone. I know that I am not the only gay man in Italy (there is Stefano too!) but for the most part we remain isolated because most gay men in Italy do not come out of the closet for fear of all the shit that this society will throw at them.

Here, on blogger, it does not matter. It does not matter that I am Catholic and gay and that those two can be combined. It does not matter that my wants are different from that of the majority of people. I do not have to fear ex-communication, disowning from my family, being shunned by my friends.

Here, I can just be me.

And that, is why I am here.

8 Comments:

At 6:14 PM, Anonymous dan said...

hey sanderino, sand man, 'sandro... nah j/k. anyway, great posts, just get it out and think it through, good luck man, the weekend's coming. later.

 
At 6:29 PM, Blogger Derek said...

Hey guy, I've been doing a lot of thinking why I blog as well lately.

Here's a cool Italian blog of a internet bud of mine.

http://ilvichingo.blogspot.com/

 
At 7:10 PM, Blogger Minge said...

Then that's a good start, Alessandro. I was thinking about the same thing recently, check it out (mainly for the comments):

http://fabulousminge.blogspot.com/2006/07/what-is-blog.html

 
At 9:10 PM, Blogger john said...

You are not alone here!!

 
At 9:27 PM, Blogger alessandro said...

dan, if you want to shorten my name, shorten it to Sandro. It is the only variation on my name that I am willing to answer to. lol.

and minge, of course I will go look at that blog entry and comment. :)

It is good to know that I am not alone

 
At 10:29 PM, Blogger Gumby said...

I am ecstatic to find your blog. I visited Italy for the first time last October, and now I am an avid student of your language and culture. I am studying Italian in a continuing ed program, and while I am progressing, it is slower than I would like. It's just nice to find someone on blogger who actually lives there! Sort of living vicariously through you.

Ciao!

 
At 1:29 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

There is more than just me and you, believe me. In June, which is the pride month, Italy had his share of Gay events, just check how many people were at the one in Torino.
Things are changing here as everywhere. We're far behind, but we'll catch up. Coming out is a really hard process, but I think that the more gay men come out, the easier it will be. One of the biggest problems is that the straight crowd is used to see out gay people from a dissociated point of view. But when they face the homosexuality inside their group of friends, or their families, things will start to change.
Anyway, don't be depressed. Things will eventually start to work out for you too. You'' have to learn to wait...
Laters,

 
At 5:31 AM, Blogger Gray said...

You must *not* feel alone when there are people around the world who support you and *know* what you are going through!

 

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